Moving Forward

For those of you who don't know....I am in a contest that the YMCA and MIX 104.1 puts on every year. There are 10 contestants and whoever loses the most weight (it is actually a percentage that takes in consideration more than just weight I believe) wins prizes. For me though, I won when I was chosen to be a part of the program. I get to go to the Y for free for about 2 months (that saves me almost $140!) and Seth can go too which is an added bonus because I am more motivated to go work out when he is off if he goes with me! I also get personal training sessions 2 times a week. This is why I wanted to be a part of the program. I have NO IDEA how to really get into shape. I have NEVER EVER been active in any way. I rode a bike as a kid but I never participated in sports...but hey I lettered in Choir so that has to count for something right? =)

I started off doing this because when I was Bella's age I began to gain weight and have been overweight ever since and I want to be a good example for her. I do not want her to go through what I did as a child, teenager, or adult. I am sure she will have other struggles but I want to do everything in my power to give her the tools she needs to live a healthy life and to maintain a healthy weight. I believe that starts with me getting healthy. I have been really careful not to call this a diet, I always say "mommy is doing this so I can be more healthy and active." Now that I am 3 weeks into the program, I am doing this for me! I am becoming a little addicted to working out. I absolutely love to dance in zumba class, kick in turbo, and be tortured by my trainer twice a week.

Tonight I was feeling a little sorry for myself because Seth is gone for the next 4 days so I made myself my favorite thing ever...cheese Fondue. Granted I made about 1/4 of what I usually make for Seth and I so I wasn't being all that bad but oh my goodness it made me so sick! I tried a sip of Bella's tea at dinner and it was disgusting. I helped Seth made brownies and Christmas Crack as we call it and I wanted to throw up from the smell. No I am not pregnant! For the past week I have discovered when I eat unhealthy I feel absolutely horrible. It is truthfully a little bittersweet for me.

Food was my escape, food made me happy, I would get depressed if I really wanted a Pepsi and I didn't have one in the house. It has been that way for over 20 years! Now, I am going to have to discover other things that make me happy. Of course, my family makes me happy, but when Seth sits down and eats 5 oreos a night (which he has every right to that boy runs almost 20 miles a week most of the time!) I am going to have to find something else to make me happy. I have discovered that exercise helps, but I can't do that at 9:00 at night! Maybe I will just write on here when I want a Pepsi and Butterfinger =)

Now I have written goals on this blog before but here are some new ones.

1. I will drink 12 cups of water today (I work out 6 days a week for at least an hour...usually more so I think I probably need more than the regular 8).

2. I want to be to my "ideal size" by my 10 year wedding anniversary at the end of July. Now my ideal size might not be my "ideal weight" as far as medical standards go but I will weigh less than I have in close to 20 years by then!

3. I will park and walk to get Bella at least 3 times a week (which her and the boys LOVE!)

4. After the contest is over I will continue to work out at least 3 times a week, hopefully 4!

5. I will be able to keep up with my kids when we go to Disney for the week at the end of March =)