Tired

My kids have been sick for over a week. Sawyer is finally not contagious so he was able to go back to school today but boy oh boy does he have a case of the whinies (is that even a word?)! I am so stinkin tired just from him pitching fits constantly. Why would that make a person tired you ask? It is utterly exhausting to watch a two year old fling himself on the floor and kick and scream and know you can't do anything to make him happy. It breaks my heart in two. The child will not even take a bath without screaming the whole time and he usually LOVES baths. I know that he still doesn't feel good but that doesn't make it any easier to deal with.

So when I get tired and upset over Sawyer acting like this what do I do? I will give you three guesses but I but you can figure it out in one. I EAT!!!! I have gotten smart though. I simply do not buy stuff that I like to eat. I did have a breakdown on Sunday night though and Seth went and bought me some Crunch and Munch. I know that I won't have lost weight this week but that is OK. Like I said this blog is to document my failures as well as my successes.

Before this year my mindset was this. I would start eating better on a Monday (only Monday never Sunday or Thursday...). If I mess up at ANY time during the week - that means if I eat a whole pizza Monday at lunch- I would continue to eat bad the whole week and start again on the next Monday. Such crazy thinking! Now I have finally decided I will do the best I can at all times. If I eat a whole pizza for lunch today, I will just move on and try to do better the rest of the day and the rest of the week. Hopefully this new mindset will stick and I can reach my goals of being a happier and healthier person for myself and my family!